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Jan. 29th, 2007 @ 01:08 am How long has it been...?
Current Mood: happyhappy
So. It's been a week. Since my last update. Give or take. I feel as I owe it to my loyal fans (yea right!, I think there may be a total of like 3 people who even read this!) to update!

So ummm...you were updated till last week sunday. I cant remember what I did Monday, or Tuesday, I worked at least one of those days. Wednesday I called in sick. My anxiety is bad...again. That morning I went to the Ministry of Transportation, and my anxiety was sooo bad. On the bright side, I got my ownership for my car. Thursday I went back to work, and I managed to stay the whole shift (6:45am - 3:45pm) and actually even 15 more minutes than that. But I had to take a Lorazepam at the start of the shift. It totally relaxed me and calmed me down. God, those pills are gold. I only take them when needed. As, they are for when you need immediate relief from a panic/anxiety attack. Friday, I was off. I pretty much did nothing! It was great.

Saturday...dear god, what a hell of a day. I'm selling my car to mom (another story there). So we went to the Ministry of transportation around..umm...10:30am-ish? The wait in line was not bad at all. But when we got to the teller, we found we needed an emissions test thing. Which I didn't have. So, she gave us a couple other forms that needed to be filled out, told us to go get it done, and when we come back we can just go straight to the front of the line. So off to Canadian Tire we went. We got there about 11:15am ish, was told that it will be about an hour wait because there were other people ahead. Fine. Me and mom went and got some food (she did, actually, I just had water and an apple juice). I filled out the other forms, and then we went back to get the car. It was about 12:15pm. The car wasn't even in the shop yet. And I was told it would be another HOUR AND A HALF! I was NOT happy. Fine. There was no way we were going to make it back to the ministry of transportation in time before it closed at one. So, I told them to go ahead, because it needs to be done anyhow! And while they were at it, I told them to do an oil change too! So we went around, shopping and such. Killed some time. We came back. And guess what. The oil change was done, but the emissions test wasn't! The guy couldn't even find my paper work! Which had my keys with it! I was pissed! So THEN I was told it would be another 30 minutes. So, pissed and annoyed, me and mom went and sat in the food court. I grabbed something to eat (KFC, Yum!), and gave them 40 minutes! When we went back. It was just finishing up. So we waited about 10 more minutes. Finally I got my car back. And...the fucking car failed the emissions test! Sonofabitch. I found my old emissions test from back in April tonight, well mom did. So when we go back to the MTO on wednesday, we are going to see if they will accept that. If not, then I have to go to Canadian Tire again, and have them run a Dianostic Test and then have them repair whatever it is that is making the car fail. Yippee, if that is the case, it will probably run me up to about $500. Fucksakes. I am not a happy camper. So we spent about 4 hours at fucking Canadian Tire/Mall...sucked ass. The rest of the night I relaxed and helped mom shred a bunch of paper! haha...Until we wore out the shredder for the night! I then spent the rest of the night on the computer, reading webcomics...haha...until I realized it was like 4am! haha...So I took Chloe out and got into bed around 4:30am. I got up around 12ish. And spent the day being lazy.

Dave came on in the afternoon, we chatted on msn for a bit, until it started being weird where he wouldn't get some of my messages. So he called me instead. We talked for a bit until he had to go and help get dinner ready :). Later, he came online again. We chatted, and I went on a search for a webcam! haha. My digital camera doesn't have that feature. My old webcam wouldn't work because I couldn't find the cd for it. The one I had from a couple years ago also wouldn't work because I didn't have the cd for it, as well as, I think it's broken or something anyhow. So I finally got Jason's webcam. That worked! haha. So I went on webcam with Dave for awhile. And it was kept clean, people! haha...I also talked to Laura tonight too :) still am, actually. Although she hasn't said anything in a bit...err, maybe it's my turn to say something...nope, I responded last. :P So, earlier, Dave had internet trouble. It is out in his area. So he called me. And we talked for a nice while. It was a nice talk. Talked a lot about me and my anxiety. As well as making plans for this weekend. YAY! He's suppose to pick me up friday night, and go to his place. I think we are going to watch a movie or something, maybe some popcorn, and I suggested hot chocolate as well! hehe. I will probably spend the night, and in the morning he will bring me home. Then I have to be at work for 11am...BOO! Anyhow, I love talking to him on the phone. His voice is soooo sexy! *drool* haha

Well, after this wednesday (which I have off), I won't have another day off until the following Thursday of next week! That's going to majorly suck! Hopefully I can handle it! I kind of need the money. Bah.

Anyhow. I think that's enough of an update for tonight. Oh! I gave Chloe a bath tonight. She's all pretty, and fluffy, and smells better now! whoo-hoo!...

Ok...now I'm done.

Kisses
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Jan. 21st, 2007 @ 10:12 pm A nice weekend... :)
Current Location: Jason's room, Jason's Laptop...
Current Mood: blahblah
Current Music: Tv...Commercials
So friday, I did nothing...haha...well, I took Chloe to the vet. She was due for her shots and a check up. Now, I was suppose to bring in a fecal sample...well, do you think I could actually get the dog to take a crap? NO! haha...I think she did it a bit on purpose ;) oh well, it's ok. I was given the lil capsule thing that I put poop in and bring it in to them when I can. I have till the 16th of Feb. to bring it in, as she is due for her booster shot for Lepto. I opted to get Lepto this year because if she were to contract the disease, it is a disease that can be passed to humans. So, I thought, better safe than sorry. Now, Lepto is known to have side affects, such as massive swelling that would require immediate medical attention. When we got home, Chloe became sick, horribly sick, and threw up a lot, on Jason's bed as well as allllll over the rug in the livingroom...poor pup. But after that, she as ok. She went to sleep, and I couldn't see her (as I was sitting on the bed, she was at the foot of the bed, on the floor). When Jason got home, she got up, and I took one look at her and freaked. The area around her eyes was swelling up! I gave her a once over, and she was tender where she was swelling, but otherwise, she was ok. No swelling elsewhere and she seemed to be in good spirits. But we didn't feed her that night (due to her sensitive tummy that day) and kept a close eye on her. She was a trooper. By the morning, she was good as new :) the swelling had subsided, and we gave her about half the amount of food we normally give her for breakie...she ate it all, and kept it down! yay! She'd fine now, but it was a teeny bit scary.

Friday, Ryan asked me to come over Saturday afternoon (once he finished work) to watch...drum roll...Pulp Fiction! YES! I finally watched it! All of it! haha...and yes, it is a good movie! A lil messed up, but good nonetheless! So Saturday, before I went to Ryan's, I talked to Dave. He wanted to know if I was free that night. So I said, well, I'm going over to a friend's house to watch a movie, but afterwards I'm free. So I took his number (ha! finally got it! lol) to give him a call if I was able to do anything. So off to Ryan's I went (he picked me up as I currently am insurance-less), and we watched about half of the movie, was hungry, stopped movie, went to Harvey's, got some grub, went back to Ryan's, ate and finished the movie! woot! After the movie, I called Dave. I had great timing as I called just before he started to drink! haha. Since it would take him about 45 mins or so to get to my place, I stayed a bit longer at Ryan's and got to play Guitar Hero something or another...haha (Ryan, please correct me as to the name!). My first attempt...dear god, it was beyond pitiful!My second attempt was MUCH better! 89%! woot! and my third attempt, I failed, like the first time! haha, Ryan did better than me, but obviously, he has had more time to try it, play it, and practice...haha! But, DAMN! is it ever fun! Then, Ryan drove me home. BUT it was a very fun time! Thanks Ryan!!!

Ok...So, about 9pmish, Dave arrived! And off we went to his place, in Georgetown. It's only about a 45 min drive...without traffic! haha... So, at his place, his brother, Nick, and his friend are figuring something out on their guitars, Nick's gf and friends are there, and me and Dave. We then started mixing drinks. Well, Dave would mix drinks, I would steal about 1/3 - half of those drinks! haha...then he poured shots, we (me, Nick's gf and friend) walk over to take one. But they took too long to get there, I got there first, and downed 4 shots within 30 secs until they got there and started complaining! haha...and with Dave laughing the whole time! lol So, then we travlled downstairs to the basement, where the amps are for the guitars, and the drum kit...and Nick, and his buddy started playing, which was awesome. They are really talented. Dave jumped on drums, apparently he had taught himself to play about a month ago! haha. And he's really not that bad. He was able to keep rthyme with the boys as they played. Then Dave got off and came sat with me again. Nick jumped on drums and hes good at that too! haha...He's kinda nuts at the same time...it was fun! And afterwards, me and Dave went and chilled in his room. Talked a lot. Which was nice. We kind of understand each other in a way a lot of people couldn't. And then, we had some fun...haha...went to sleep. And he snores...a lot! and loudly! haha...I got like 2-3 hours sleep. We woke up at 6:30am because I had work today at 8am. So we had some more fun before getting out of bed, and then off we went! It was nice...after a quick pit stop at Timmies, he dropped me off.

Work, work was horrible! Not because of any customers, but because I was soooooooo tired! Thankfully, I only had a short shift (8am-1pm), but it still seemed too long! So, I finished, and then waited for Jason to pick me up. He kinda forgot about me. I waited in the COLD, COLD, COLD! for awhile, and then called him. I got Jason:"Sorry! I will be there in a couple of minutes!" *click* haha. So I went inside to wait. So, I chatted with Tilly and Ryan. And kinda bugged Ryan a bit. I HAD TO! Today was his last day at the Depot! Awww...now who am I going to have to bug. lol... So then I left, came home, went on the computer, then crashed...

Only, my room was sooooooooo cold! I had warm sleep pants on, t-shirt, my duvet, a sheet and a comforter, and I was still cold! BRR! So I kinda was able to get about 2 hours of sleep, got up...and I kinda feel a lil crappy. And a lil off...but I'm sure I will be fine tomorrow...hopefully! hehe...

I'm kinda waiting for Dave to come online, because I want the pics that were taken last night...and the video! and no, it's not a bad, dirty video ;) haha...Just one that was taken while we were all sitting around, chatting and having a drink.

Ok, I guess that is enough from me for one night....OH! Tomorrow, I have to head out to the Ministry of Transportation...I lost my ownership *cries*. I'm kinda pissed about that, but, what can you do! Oh well. Just sucks, because I need it to get insurance, otherwise, I'm pretty much carless, even though she's sitting out there in the parking lot.

ok...so now I am off...hehe...Ta-Ta!
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Jan. 19th, 2007 @ 05:31 pm College Days...
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Current Music: What Goes Around, Comes Around - J. Timberlake
So, I have been reminicing (sp?) about my college days as of late. And remembering those days are fun :). Lots of good memories! So, I am going to list some of those memories and even some "quotes" haha...I put quotes in quotation marks because these are taken from times when booze have been involved and I don't know if I will be quoting them word for word perse...so here goes:

"Ummm...I just crashed here" - me, telling Jenn why I was coming out of Dave's room the next morning...

Me and Laura (and a couple ugly ass people who can't dance) tearing up the dance floor on pub nights!

Drinking before pub night at Rez, while having HUMP DAY DINNERS!

Randy's super hot hot sauce! Which he eats like its ketchup! (and I foolishly thought "Pfft! Whatever! I can take it!" Needless so say I had to drink a lot afterwards! And I only took a lil taste!

The night I spent in Andy's room...hehe...

The last party for when I was there! (and Dave's room!) haha

Sleeping in class! haha

Drinking while on "animal attendant duty"...shhhh ;)

Mere having a cold and coughing a lot in class - Nazi teacher yelling "WHO'S DOING THAT!? YOU MIGHT AS WELL AS GET OUT OF MY CLASS!"

Luther the doggy

Our kickass grooming group! Poor pup who had to be completely shaved coz his fur was soooo matted that it came off in one sheet :(

Borrowing Laura's sexy clothes for Pub Nights ;)

Jill and I spanking Booty!

and last but not least...and most definitely my favourite memory:

Me: "DAVE! WHERE'S LAURA?!?!?"
Dave: "Umm... " *looks at me kinda oddly* (Laura is standing RIGHT next to him)
Laura: "Ummm... Hey, Janine!"
Me: "LAURAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
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Jan. 18th, 2007 @ 12:28 am Hmmm...
Current Location: Jason's room, Jason's Laptop...
Current Mood: coldcold
Current Music: Jason snoring!
So I have come to the conclusion that I know WAY TOO MANY Dave's (David's). Dear god, why is that name so popular as it seems.

Dave one: My father. Name is David, but he is known as Dave. He is also known as John to the Newfies back home! haha, but thats another story.

Dave two: Friend from college. Dave is a much loved friend...if you get my drift...There was the night of cuddling and "fun" when I spent a night at Rez, and then another time when we had the last party of the year, I spent the night with him in his room! And then lost contact after a couple of months...and started talking to him again last night. Then he came out to see me. God it was great to see him again!

Dave three: Friend I met through another friend! Went to a concert with him, was a blast. He currently lives sooooo far from me, so I havent seen him since the concert, but we still chat and get the occassional email...we chat more than emails though! Great guy... (no, no action went on between us).

Dave four: Friend of mine and my cousin. Good guy, who LOVES to push my buttons, but whatever! haha...typical older gentleman who thinks ladies should be ladies. That also means no foul language! He drives me nuts most of the time, but he's ok.

Then there are the Dave's: RA my friend really liked. Couple people at work named Dave (past and present since I've been there) I think there is about three of them...two that currently come to mind. And more scattered about I'm sure! haha

I kind of feel like I am missing someone (a Dave! haha). But nothing else is coming to mind right now. So, I will leave it at that...

Also...have I mentioned yet that I am to be a Bridesmaid!! It's pretty exciting :) and I think I get to go Brides Dress shopping with the bride soon! Oh! the bride is Sam. A friend who I work with :). And it sounds like it will be a nice small wedding, intimately at her home...can't wait. Feb '08.

And I hope to go back to school in Sept '08. The college I went to for Animal Care is suppose to have the Veternarian Techinican Program by then! :D YAY!

Anyhow...that is all for now...kisses!
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Jan. 13th, 2007 @ 12:17 am The Mulberry Bush Is A Mulberry Bush
Current Location: The Bed Of Gods
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Current Music: Sugar & Spice - Movie on TBS
So this past week has been mostly uneventful in my life, I suppose. But I don't know, I will let you guys decide that.

So, I have a friend that has been going through some tough bullshit. And I can totally relate to her. I spent like 2-2 1/2 hours or so on the phone with her last night. Which resulted in me going to bed at 4:30am. I got her from crying to laughing, which is a great thing to accomplish and feel! Hopefully shit will settle down from here on out for her, but thats hard to say at this point. So I am crossing my fingers.

There are a couple of guys that I would LOVE to be with. But it just doesn't work like that for me :( . One is caught up in something else. The other two are involved. I would love to just be with them, and if not relationship wise then I would LOVE to be in bed with them...just once...only once! And one more that I am not entirely sure about. He's nice, and stuff, definitely well-endowed...and the eyes! OMG! Such a turn on. But I really don't know if that would be entirely wise.

Tonight I was working...and my ex from way back when came back in. With his fat-ass/ugly girlfriend. So they came in and he said Hi and the girlfriend even smiled at me, and when they left i was talking to Gaby and we were laughing a kidding around and i liked the fact that he got to see me happy and not being bothered by him he waved bye onhis way out and i acknnowledged him and i said something loud like "hey!" at Gaby and Evan turned around, saw i wasnt talking to him and then continued to walk out. Felt good to act like him being there didnt bother me. And really it didn't bother me a whole lot. Maybe a teensy lil bit. But no.

My anxiety is back. Well it never really had left. But it wasn't showing up and running my life like usual. Until about a week ago. It started up again. Bad. I have good moments and bad moments, and really bad moments. Most of my good moments are when I am asleep...my only real escape from it :(...
oh well...I really don't want to go back on the medication for it. They never really helped much to begin with, except for making more like a zombie. I called them "Weed in a bottle". So far, I am battling it on my own. Hopefully it goes away for awhile soon. Please!

I have also been thinking about going back to working in the animal field. At first I think I will just look for a part time position at a vet's office and still work part time at Home Depot as well. And then meld into getting a fulltime position at a vet's office, or something animal related. I wouldn't mind trying grooming. I know thats even harder and more trying at times, but I would at least like to try it sometime.

Well, I think that will be it for now. Enjoy!
Kisses
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Jan. 11th, 2007 @ 11:54 pm Regular Update to come later today/tomorrow
Current Mood: crushedcrushed
In honor of a person...you know who you are, at least I think you do.

You do not see the connection like I do, but that is understandable with what is going on around you right now.
To even be in your place I could not fathom. How you are so strong is truly beyond me. Do I wish it was me in that place next to you? Yes. Thousand times over, yes.
But I am aware that is not a plausible feat right now...if ever. Life is just cruel at how you can like someone so much. Get along with the person great. And not be able to do a thing.
I wish upon the stars that burnout towards us that it was different. That somehow all of my dreams and hopes and wants could come true. Again, not plausible. As you are a good man, a man I have deep respect for. And you will do no wrong against those. Admirable to say the least.

I don't want to say "I am in love" for is that really what it is. I never thought so. That is until now. But uncertainty still looms. Like a dark angel, ready to squash my dreams and hopes.

As they say, C'est le vie. Well, Le vie? IT SUCKS! I'm sure I could add lots more. But that will be all for now.
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Jan. 3rd, 2007 @ 02:07 pm Whoa Nelly!
Current Location: Home (I think)
Current Mood: amusedamused
Current Music: Jason telling off the cat...
So last night, I had a dream. That is not uncommon with me. But this was a very...interesting...or fucked up would suit it better....dream...which also not unusual but I found it to be a lil more. I will try and recount it as best as I can. Of course, I know I will miss some details. Dream:

I'm working a cash, an unusual looking cash, like maybe something from the future. There are other cashiers. None that I can recognize at this point. And at the far end, there's a guy working cash who speaks Spanish...only spanish. So this old man approaches me, and he has 100 tiny candycanes. and i counted them out and set them up and there were two types. these were kinda expensive candycanes too. so i rang him through, and took his money, and he said something for me to pick my choice. i looked and there was more of a selection of candy. so i picked the one i wanted and then cashed him out. and then he was trying to explain something to me but i couldn't understand. and another person (i believe a woman) came up and explained to me that he had ALREADY bought these and was trying to give me one. so i felt like an idiot, but also felt pissed. i had to call for a void so this man could get his money back. i called 832 (actual # to call my supervisor at work) and got Aqueelah (my real Supervisor at work) and she said she was busy and had to go help "K" at the paint desk (true and true in real life). So i was frustrated coz no one else was available to help. So i went looking for help. This place (i guess what was suppose to be the store) looked...like a BIG farmhouse! and had lil kids...or maybe midgets?... running around doing things...

then i am with my grandmother. and my mother. and my cousin and her son. her son who is not much older than i am and they are both moving here. which would be Newfoundland, is my guess. thing is thats where they have always lived, so maybe they moved to a different town. anyhow, my cousin's son, Terrance, was pretty upset. he didnt like the place at all. even though he had his own bed (not quite sure the significance of that!) Now a scene with this setting and people did pan out more...i just cant remember it...BUT the most creepy part is that my cousin Terrance...He is dead. He has been dead since i was about 15-16 years old. I was in highschool, I remember that much. And its creeping me out having him in my dream, and such a part of it.

then I am at this house. where there are some friends. somehow i end up naked and wanting to give into someone? this person happened to be a chick friend of mine. whom i havent seen in awhile, but talk to still...and she had a dick. a very big, very nice dick...and yea, we started fucking...(YES! I KNOW!), but it was awful. she didnt know how to use the dick, and barely did anything to or with me...odd...i was disappointed to say the least...

then i woke up...
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Jan. 1st, 2007 @ 03:10 am 3am...drunk...forgive spelling...
Current Location: home
Current Mood: drunkdrunk
Current Music: only the tunes in my head...
well, yes...HAPPY NEW YEARS. THIS HAS HAD TO BE THE BEST SO FAR...HAPPY 2007. I ACTUALLY WENT OUT TONIGHT WITH A FRIEND...

oops...just realized caps...sorry...

so yes...i am =drunk...and yes...there will be speling mistakes. sue me. but i want to wtrite this now coz i kjnow i will forget this in the morning/afternoon (more likely afternoon) when i wake up...

so me and a friend went to a bar place where ther e was dancing... we started drinking early before goin so we wouldnt hafve to spend much money...it rocked. Jason drovce us to the bar anbd then picked us up...

but at the bar...it wasnt pacled! surprise surpeisr...it was actually nice. not being jampaclked with people. we were able to dance and shit. and yea...by new years we havdnt found new dance partners so we kissed each other at midnight...was a blast. i havfe a crown thingy that they handed out. i also had a few blow thingys too but i dorpped them along ht e way...oh welll...

then we starrted dacing with these two guys...my guy was actually nice. somewhat. hers weas an asshole/
she wanted to take him home. of course, even in my drunken state, i managed to conveince her not too and that it woul d be a big mistake. she wont admit it now, but she will thank me.

between the two ofd them, they must have brokem 4-5 glasses...tha we saw...pathetic
im drunk and i could still hole on to mmine glasses. morons. they both wanted to fuck, but im not that stupid...yes, even when im almost on my ass drunk...

so yes..there was kissing...all arounf appenatluy?
i dunno anymore...my doggy is happy and yes, i mean an acutall dog...i danced up a storm! had a blast...OH

MY friend almost picked up the bouncer. aft er she specifically to,d me not to go for guys like him...i wont go into that...but ya...boohyah botch!

ksickass, my first drunken post...go me! dont worry...i dont drink oftenn...yet...when ido drink it takes a few to get me like this...OH

anbd no puking! go me! so im not beyond durnk...i know my limit...ok...im gonna go back to my water now...kisses

nite nites all!
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Dec. 24th, 2006 @ 01:12 am (no subject)
Current Mood: amusedamused
I want you to sex me up. Sex me up all night long, Commander Spankypants!

Guilt free and wild with passion...

Also available: free head...
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Dec. 21st, 2006 @ 05:43 pm OH! BOOZE!
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: groggygroggy
Current Music: nothing!
so last night was booze night apparently. lol...started with hot chocolate with irish cream and then BAM! 1.14 litres of booze GONE, between two people basically...mostly in my friend! haha, poor sucker!

sadly though, no one was slurring or walking funny...guess that is a good thing...and no hangovers all around...

apparently i can be a sneaky lil one too! haha...

nakedness + booze... (or is it the other way around) turns out interestingly enough...

going to bed at 8:30am with sun up and being awake basically all night is... i want to say interesting, but no, its not entirely. drank lots of water before bed this morning...

movies are fun, when you pay attention...poker that turns into drinking poker into strip poker into drinking/strip poker...yes...i know...mind you, i won A LOT of hands! haha

and facebook....FUCK! its worst than crack...seriously...BUT cant believe all the people i have found there from my past...damn!

xmas is coming...fast...for once i didnt really keep track and instead of the holiday creeping up slowly, its kind of pounced all of a sudden. good thing is i finished all xmas shopping already! :D

hmmm...did i miss anything??

and now...for closing...quote of the night:

"I AM THE DE-VIRGINIZING FAIRY!"
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Dec. 16th, 2006 @ 10:13 pm NAKEDNESS!
Current Location: Computer on a Computer
Current Mood: bouncybouncy
Current Music: Snow Patrol - Set the Fire To the Third Bar
Great...now that I have your attention...

I haven't updated this in almost a week, well, cause really there wasn't much to update about. I will list things at random with no real order.

Boredom has seized me. And in hopes to cure it, I have turned to Ryan. He in turn turned me to more Webcomics! So I am becoming more of a webcomic junkie, where part of the definition is staying up WAY late to read the damn things. I have a lot to roam through to catch up to present day comic postings. So yup...Thanks Ryan for the many sleepless nights. And on any other given day, I'm sure that saying would have gone with drinks, a bed, condoms and possibly some food...

Beginning of the week I got a good tour of the city. Drove out to McCowen for a friend, where her boy worked, wasnt there, so off downtown/leaside we went. With a map. YAY us. It was fun, but stressful due to the reason of why we were driving like maniacs. but yea. Everything worked out in the end and all I had to do was drive from 5:30pmish to 9:30pmish with an hour and half break in between while I sat alone in the car, listening to music and wishing for a pack of smokes.

I finished ALL of my xmas shopping last weekend, so yea me. BUT I still haven't sent out my xmas cards or mailed Laura's gift! bah!

hmmm...anything else...Customers piss me off, Some co-workers piss me off, Work in general pisses me off! there, thats my rant for the night...for now...

Work xmas party tomorrow at 8pm...Virginia is my date! whoohoo! haha...you are all jealous, admit it! lol

later gators...
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Dec. 11th, 2006 @ 01:02 am My Xmas Stocking
Current Location: Karen's
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: Nada
Tags:
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Dec. 10th, 2006 @ 03:38 pm Never Boring...
Well, although I may complain a lot that my life is boring, and that nothing ever happens, it is really quite the opposite. It just takes me sitting here with my mouth dropped open to realize this.

So, some background on James, since this post will me mostly about him (as far as I can foresee at this point anyhow).

-meet him through a college gf who was dating his best friend
-started dating him myself
-he lives outside of Toronto (40 mins approx. from my place)
-is a workaolic
-relationship ended, mainly, I think because his time was limited with work and other activities. Also because I think he prefers the single life anyhow.
-BUT still kept in touch periodically.
-saw him for the first time in over a year in November (just past), and made plans to go to his place for an all-nighter the saturday after the day we saw each other
-went that saturday. had sex (wasn't the only thing we did though people!) just one aspect that is important to this post...
-still talked on the phone/net when we got a chance.

And now for my post.

So I was talking to James online last night (Saturday). And we were talking about getting together that night, spending the night, etc. Well...I happened to be talking to another friend while I was talking to James. And while talking to that friend, I will call this person *Lee*, my boobs came up (another story there altogether) and how the bras seem to be getting smaller or my boobs are getting bigger. So his comment was "Maybe you're pregnant" and I said, "Listen, just because I went off the pill (in October past), and I haven't gotten my period (not unusual while you're body re-adjusts), and my boobs have gotten bigger (speculating), does NOT mean I'm Pregnant". Only problem with my saying that was that I accidently sent it to James. Whom was the only person I've had sex with in the last 6 months, give or take. Of course, he freaked out. And completely thought that I had "intentionally" sent that to him! And thus, I became a bitch. He said "The condom did not break or tear" and I agreed with him, but that didn't settle him. So it went on. And by the end (even with all of my explaining and constantly saying "James, I am NOT pregnant, don't stress out!" He kept telling me that I was playing like I was (honestly I do not know where he got that from...I was not...and I have the convo to prove it), and that I did claim at some point I was (again, I have the convo to prove I never), he threw a big fit,and just went offline. And had his phone turned off, and yea...So I was pretty upset for a while...and still am. He is a nice guy. And what I did was an accident! I didn't intend to send that message to him at all. And it took...3...no 4! friends to try and calm me down...It was bad. I wrote an email, I didn't know how else to reach him. And was told to just give him space. So I will be. I just hope we can stay friends...or at least that he will talk to me again someday.

Yea...that sucks. On some semi-bright news though, I called Justin (long-distance guy), but got no answer. But his sister (a best friend of mine) talked to him the next night and said, "did you see Janine called?" and he hadn't. When I had called the day before, he was asleep and just never checked the phone. So then he got a call from his mom and apparently said "oh, I thought it was going to be someone else" (someone else being me). So after our falling out in September, I take this as a good step forward. Now I just have to get a hold of him somehow...Bah...Men seriously suck sometimes (sorry to all my male friends)....

Okie....That's enough for one update. Maybe I will do another later...

Bye...
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Dec. 7th, 2006 @ 12:09 am So, After Many Thoughts...
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Simpsons Show
This is my rant about work. Officially.
Well, I worked tonight, and most of the ranting here will be from tonight, but also from a few days past as well...

Rant #1: People do SHIT ALL. And this rant is towards other cashiers. Tonight, I was working Self-Checkout (SC) and there were two newer cashiers working the regular cashes...and they kept disappearing! One girl was told about it, and then stayed around. And that same girl then went on to clean(sweep, etc). Which is fine, to look busy and shit. But when she had a customer, she would barely acknowledge that fact and then saunter over to her till like it was slow motion or something. HOLY FUCK I have never seen someone move so slow in my life! THEN she brings HER full garbage over to my ALMOST FULL garbage and makes my garbage OVER FULL. LIKE WHERE THE FUCK IS THE LOGIC IN THAT??? Just tie up your own bag, put it aside and get a NEW bag! WTF! And then wiped the counter and brought the dirty paper towel to MY garbage, WHAT WAS WRONG WITH HER COMPLETELY EMPTY GARBAGE???

THEN she talked to me for a little bit and decided that telling me she was on her period sucked and that's why she was being quiet that night. LIKE I GAVE A SHIT about her being on her period or even CARE about why she was being quiet!


Rant #2: One of my Headcashiers! They are my immediate supervisors. But only one of them which I have a problem with! Can't STAND how she talks to me like I am five and that I cannot comprehend ANYTHING! Example. Last sunday (I believe it was this day, very possibly couple days before that one), I had two HC with me. And a customer who had a coupon to take off $30 before taxes. His total before taxes was $27 something. Now, common sense should tell you that you CANNOT take $30 from $27...yet, one of my headcashiers was trying to, and then the one I HATE tried to help her do it. I kept telling them that it cannot be done. Think they listened? NOPE. So finally they come to the conclusion that you can't take $30 from $27. AND THEN!? The HC I HATE turns to me and explains TO ME why they couldn't do it! I ACTUALLY said back to her "I WAS THE ONE WHO SAID THAT IN THE FIRST PLACE!" She disregarded that fact that I was correct all the while and continued tell me why.

Tonight...I had to fill out a blue form for a Clearance item I sold. Standard procedure. Think she thought I could manage on my own? NOPE. So, she literally looked over my shoulder (best she could cause I am taller than her) while I filled it out! Like I am a goddamn child! And she talks to me like I am a child, as if I don't know. FUCK YOU. And she leaves me at the Lumber doors, with no customers coming or going, in the store. I knew there were some at one point, but they left and she still forgot about me. So I called her and she said have someone walk you, she didn't pause to ask someone if all the customers were gone, so obviously she must have already known, so why hadn't she called me to tell me to cash off??? CAUSE SHE'S FUCKING STUPID.
The list does go on...but enough for now...

That's all my ranting for now. Going to go, should go to bed soon. Have to be back at work for 8am. GRRR.

Later Gator
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Dec. 6th, 2006 @ 02:15 pm 5 Mins to Post!
Current Mood: lethargiclethargic
Current Music: Nothing ...Total Silence for once
So I really only have like 5 mins to make a post here, before I have to get off and get ready for work. So please excuse any and all spellling and or grammar mistakes. Thank you.

Yes, I am closing tonight, oh joy oh me. I hate closing, but I don't mind it tonight or the shift I have closing next week because, so far, they only have me closing one night a week, which is just peachy to me! Tomorrow I start at 8am, which sucks because I wont even get home tongith till about 11:30pm, then sit up for a lil bit then try and go to sleep, then up at 7am. BUT it is better than what my moron DS had me scheduled for! she had wanted me to come in by 6:5am orginially! I was like NO WAY. not to mention its illegal. There should be an 11 hour period between shifts, minimum. I know it doesnt always work out that way, but theres no way in hell im settling for 6-7 hours between. Damn wacko!

I wonder who I will be closing with, hopefully not morons who can't pull their weight and end up making the night hell for me, running around everywhere to finish everything up. BAH.

Jason is having an interview at Home Depot right now...scary, yes...but much needed. Hard times SUCK! Would be interesting if he got the job, coz he would be the ONLY person there that fully knew what they were doing. By that, I mean hes a Licensed Electrian. He knows his shit.

I will be sending out my Xmas (Holiday, whatever) cards soon. Sent out a mass email, but not sure if I got everyone in it! So, dunno...Some have responded with their addresses, I think I really should write them down somewhere, But, being lazy me, probably not!

OH! Just found out a friend is dating someone I thought she would end up dating, and must say I am very happy to see this! Congrats you two!!! I could go on to comment about the previous Beau, but will refrain myself from doing so. *That's mighty big of you, Janine. Why, yes, yes it is.*

My internet was down last night. Actually, all of Cable was down (TV and Internet!) So I watched a movie. Pirates of the Caribean (spelt wrong i know): dead man's chest! Was a good movie! and definitely left off a tail for the next movie!

Okie...My 5 mins was long ago up...will update later...
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Dec. 5th, 2006 @ 06:33 pm Interesting One...
Current Mood: blahblah
Stolen from [info]fuzzywanda


How much have YOU changed in 7 years?
7 Years ago...

How old were you?
14

Where did you live?
Toronto, Ontario

Where did you go to school?
Northview Heights Secondary School

Where did you hang out?
around the school....my house...G. Ross Park

How was your hair style?
Long, Straight, Blond highlights...

Did you wear glasses?
nope

Who was your crush?
Evan (dated at the time)

What kind of car did you drive?
Didn't..I was 14

How many tattoos did you have?
none

How many piercings did you have?
2 in each ear

What was your worst fear?
I don't remember...I'm sure there were many.

Had you smoked a cigarette yet?
Yes.

Had you been arrested?
no

Had your heart broken?
yes

Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter
Taken

***DEC 2006***

Where do you live?
Toronto, Ontario

What school do you go to?
none, I have to go to work now

Where do you hang out?
Home, Work, thats it...

Do you wear glasses?
nope

What is your hairstyle?
long, straight and red (dyed)

Still talk to any of your old friends?
yes

How many piercings do you have?
7, all in my ears

How many tattoos?
Two, Tiger on my left shoulder, Taurus symbol on my right shoulder

What kind of car do you have?
'96 VW Jetta (Black)

What is your biggest fear?
That I'm never going to be working a job I truly like

Have you been arrested since, if so then times total?
none

Has your heart been broken?
Too many times...

Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter:
Bitter (and single)
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Dec. 5th, 2006 @ 03:41 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: Lethal Weapon Movie!
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Dec. 5th, 2006 @ 12:28 pm So Long! Good Day!
Current Mood: mellowmellow
Current Music: The Polar Express Movie
Yea, the title? Not really sure about that one! Just came to mind, so I wrote it.

So, Jason just finished playing the song, Mad World, and I am watching The Polar Express on the movie network. This is what my day off consists of. Wish I could be doing something more productive, but honestly, I cannot think of anything to do.

Any suggestions?

Dave, family friend, came by this morning. To see Chloe. But that is ok, I invited him to come and see her. He loves her to pieces, and since he had to recently put his puppy to sleep, he really enjoys her company and playfulness and kisses, etc...it's cute really. And I got to take some nice pics of him and Chloe and some of just Chloe. I think I will try and load them on here once I get the film developed.

It snowed last night! Which was sooooo nice. Sadly, some of it has melted so far! *cries* I just hope there's some on the ground for xmas. I think we may pick up our tree tonight. Which would be good for the time to decorate it on the weekend. Gotta let the branches settle, see? lol... I cannot wait! I LOVE the smell of a real xmas tree! oh gosh!

God, I love this movie...just gave me goosebumps!

For Xmas, I want:
-sleep pants
-bras
-socks
-undies
-friends season 2-10 (I have season 1)
-gift cards!!!

that's all I can really think of. I still have to get Jason's gift, Kalli's gift card (yes, we decided on that for each other), the Kris Kringle gift, and finish off Laura's gift. I won't list the things already wrapped for her, as I know she can view this! haha...

I think I may go out soon to get some goodies! YUM YUM!
Oh!
And day 4 since last cigarette! YIPPEE! day 5 if you dont count that one cigarette last friday! haha! I'm still proud of myself, so yea.
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Dec. 3rd, 2006 @ 09:38 pm Should I Really...?
Current Mood: boredbored
Current Music: TV
Another cold day, and SNOW! haha...yay for snow. Of course, I only want it to be here until xmas, and once xmas day is all said and done, it can vanish for another 11 months!

So I worked today, 11am-8pm. Was a pretty dead day. Boring and fun all at the same time. MANY people (coworkers) were turning heads when they saw me today. Could it be my appearance? I think so as I received many comments, "Is today your birthday?" "Are you going out tonight?" "You have a date later on?", to which the answer for all of these is No. No birthday (May month people!), no party, no date. My date tonight, is with this computer, but also possibly writing a letter to Justin. Do I want to do that? No, well yes, but no. I have no idea whatsoever of what to write...like geez...moron should be the one to contact me, not the other way around...but yea, that's the reaction I got today for wearing a nice shirt, earrings, makeup and doing my hair instead of just pulling it back into a messy bun!

I have been in some serious pain off and on for the past 3-4 days. Like seriously, I have had enough of it now, thank you! Can pack up your bags and GO AWAY! I'm assuming its womanly related, but now I'm starting to wonder.

What shall I do tomorrow? Well, if the letter boxes aren't cleaned tonight, which is probably the answer right there, I will clean those, and give the hedgies a bath. And then, possibly give Chloe a bath, but take her for a walk before that so she doesn't freeze her doggie tush off. I hope it's a light snow fall tomorrow when I go for the walk. :)

I have been slacking big time lately with WoW. I have barely been on it for the past...ummm...week? 2 weeks? I have lost count of the days, guess that should tell you something there as it is...I am still sitting at level 41...BAH! Oh well...Boo Hoo for me!

So, yesterday I had off. And Mom and I turned it into a Mother-Daughter day. I woke up around 10:30am (went to bed that morning at about 4:30am! haha) and got a shower, ate breakie and around 12:30pmish, we left for the mall. There was a BIG sale at Zellers (yes, and I don't care what you think of that) and Mom and I had a blast. We bought soooooo much, and I finished about half of my xmas shopping! So after 2-3 hours of shopping and then a late, late lunch, we made our way home. I had bought gifts, but a couple things for myself. I bought myself two new shirts, and a bra. Of course, one of the shirts did not fit, and neither did the bra! DAMMIT! So, after dinner yesterday, Mom and I went back to the mall and I went to return the clothes as Mom went to try on clothes! haha...the shirt I had no problem with returning it. The bra, apparently, was not exchangable nor refundable. WHICH PISSED ME OFF! like what the fuck!?!? So I said ok, and walked away as I was not in the mood for any kind of a war...

Today, my Mom went back to the mall, and tried to return it for me again. The person tried to refuse it, but my mom, God love her, put up a fight. Her point was, if you can try it on in the store, then why can't you bring it back? It still had all the tags on it, and wasn't even bought more than 24hrs prior to the conversation. The woman finally relented! So, yes, I got my money back! HA!

I made strawberry daiquiries last night, my first attempt. And they did not turn out good at all! So tonight, I modified the recipe a little and made them again! Turned out a lot better! lol...But I don't know! Maybe this is a sign that I should never work in a bar, or own my own bar, or etc...

Ok...that's my update for today...
Later Gators!
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Dec. 1st, 2006 @ 12:11 am Today, At Work...
So today was another day starting at 6:45am...whoo hoo...NOT...

So it started off ok, I suppose, although a little weird. But I don't think it helped that I had only like 3 1/2 hours of sleep last night. So anyhow...first, a guy co worker (whom I have never really got along with, for some reason he had seemed to always have a problem with) actually had a conversation with me before he left to go home (he works nights at the moment). And the scary part is that it was a nice conversation. No sarcasism or remarks of any sort...it really kinda set me off step a bit...wow...I would have thought Hell froze over! haha

And then, my boss boss (aka Store Manager) asked me to do a job which was really a little extreme if you ask me, and asked a coworker near me to do a simple easy job when this coworker started to help me out with mine! My job was to tidy up displays of boxes of slate...VERY heavy slate! to lift TWO pieces of slate is heavy...to lift a box (containing 10 pieces) is hell! my coworker was given a job to put books away...now what ticked me off with this really is the fact that I AM A GIRL! and yes, I am not totally weak, and my coworker is a guy! a guy who has little trouble lifting these fucking boxes! like wtf!!!
So after I squat my finger trying to move around these damn things, and tearing my hands apart (and probably giving myself a bad back, which I will let you know tomorrow if it has or not), my coworker finishes up his project quick and then comes back to help me!! God, what a sweetheart!
So the boss comes out while my coworker is helping and I look at him and I say "They are too heavy for me!", he smiled and said that I should hit the gym (it was in a joking manner, no one freak out here)...So together we got most of it done, then I had too many customers to bother with it...
When I walked by later, someone had finished it all...So there! haha

Anyhow...that had pissed me off initially...OH...at work we are doing "Kris Kringle". Basically, it's Secret Santa by a different name. And I got to pick my name this morning. Well, the person I picked, somehow, I knew I was going to get her! haha. I am not going to say the name on here just because of the fluke chance that someone will actually come read this, and it would probably end up being a coworker who would read this! haha....So anyhow...our Kris Kringle is limited to just the cashiers...which is cool, like our own little club or something! haha...Yea, I know, that sounded ridicuously retarded! But still. I have never worked at a place before that did this, so I am excited! Now for the task of actually finding something for this person! BLAH!

Hmmm...well...anything else I can write about?

OH!

GREY'S ANATOMY TONIGHT

I am sooooo excited. I will probably come back and post something about that later! It comes on at 8pm (and since I don't know how to change my post time that shows up...it always shows the wrong time I am posting (ex: I post at night, it says I posted at sometime around 6am or something! retarded I tell ya!) and it's about 7pm right now!

One Tree Hill was one of the fucking best episodes I have seen yet! Hailey gets hit by a car, Lucas drops from his heart problem, and Peyton has to deal with something good that JUST happened to her to be almost ripped from her after like 3 hours! DAMN! and that little tidbit mentioned all happened in like a span of 5 minutes! Of course, RIGHT at the end of the episode. *NOTE TO SELF: DO NOT miss next weeks episode!!!

Watched the ending half of Clerks 2...was pretty good from what I got to see! Man those guys are fucked up! lol.

Am working tomorrow at 8am, but I really think I will go to bed at 9pm (after Grey's of course! haha) or slightly later than that. I can't deal with a late night tonight...I feel so drained and ill...BLAH!

Haven't talked to James since I apologized (past Tuesday)...so two days ago. But that's ok. He's busy...damn workaolic! lol

Took Chloe to work with me when I went to pick dad up at 3pm...She LOVED it as usual! She always gets lots of attention from my coworkers there, as well as customers! haha...She soaks it up like the Suck she is ;) hehe...

Ok...now I'm off...I can't think of anything else to write right now...

Later Gators!
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